You helped me discover what it is to love one you never knew, and know just how deep the love of a father is for his child.

I wish you could see the love that your mother has for you. I wish you could hear the songs that she would sing, and the melodies she would compose celebrating your every moments – the special moments, and all of those in between.

Even though I could not be your father, I am glad that you are in the arms of our heavenly father. His love is the love I would have strived to live up to for you. Let him show you quiet strength, perfect forgiveness, and grace in the face of injustice. I pray that your little brother or sister will know even the smallest measure of the love that you know on this day. I pray that tears of mourning can yield slowly to tears of joy.

I love you, and I will miss you until the day we meet,

Love,

Daddy

I wish I could have held you in my arms just one time.  I wish I could have looked into your tiny eyes and held your tiny hands.  I wish I could have seen your first steps and heard your first words, but Jesus had another plan.

I don't understand why God chose to take you home before you could meet us and we could meet you, but He did and I know you are with Him now.  I look forward to the day I get to Heaven and have you waiting for me.  At that time, I'll be able to hold you for the first time. 

I miss you, though I never knew you, and cry for you today.

I love you.

Love,
Mommy

Click for ultrasound photo.

I still have that job at the law office in Bellevue.  It's an interesting job and I like my coworkers.  I am technically the Receptionist, but do a lot of Paralegal type work.  I'm on a contract that expires at the end of this month and it will probably be renewed for a second time, but we'll see for sure soon.

My hCG finally dropped to safe levels at the beginning of June and we've been trying since then to get pregnant.  We haven't been successful yet, but are praying and hoping we will be soon.

Mom is doing well.  Some of her long term memory is slipping, but she still remembers people.  I help her write her dad once a week and visit her regularly.  We take her out for the day on Sundays and she loves that.

Philip is home from Iraq as of June and with his wife, Courtney.  They live in Texas and things are going well for them.  They just got a girl dog that he named Huck, then decided that was a boy name and changed her name to Maddy (the name she came with).  They came up for a visit in July and it was so good to see them.  They plan on visiting for Christmas and we're really looking forward to that.

Nick's job is going well.  He's been away for teaching and to a convention and has been getting lots of exposure at Microsoft.  He really likes his job.  It's challenging and fun and he gets to be creative.

He's also still a youth pastor at Abundant Life Christian Fellowship.  We have good kids and we love them.  Continue to keep us and them in your prayers.

If there's something you're curious about and I haven't covered here, please let me know!

Download:
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The server has been running fairly continuously since 2001. This last week the primary hard disk failed hard (after the backup failed a few months ago). Luckily we had adequate backups, but getting a new drive to replace it, back ups restored, and everything back in order took some time, and I have been away on business (more on that later).

We are back for the time being, but there might be other as of yet undiscovered issues with the server. In the meantime you can use my @quicklearn.com email address to contact me, and Katie's @msn.com email address to contact her.

Side note: My @microsoft.com email address is down too (and I don't know why)

Erik Champ Hinderman
Weight: 7 lbs 3 oz
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Birth Date/Time: 11:42pm on tax day]]> http://www.nickandkatie.net/ http://www.nickandkatie.net/contactus.asp nick@nickandkatie.net Thu, 16 Apr 2009 07:29:31 GMT NKBLOG-POSTID-129 Which is worse? Just kidding. We finally did them last night... Why can't the government simplify things for us or at least stop taking so much?

I digress, I have a promising job interview with Regence in Seattle tomorrow. I went in for a typing test a couple weeks ago and they called me back! Hopefully, this will work out. As you know, I've been searching for a job for a really long time and this would be awesome! I would be working in the same building as Lewis, Julie, and Emily.

Speaking of Emily, she's just about ready to pop. Champ is taking his sweet time coming, but hopefully he'll be coming soon. For the last week or so, we've all been sitting on pins and needles thinking tonight could be the night, but then he doesn't.

So, overall, life is good. This Easter weekend was a great reminder of what really matters in life. Christ. Christ died and rose again for us and we're not to worry about things. Why? This seems so difficult...and God knows I have plenty to worry about. Medical bills are piling up from the miscarriage, my HCG levels are still not normal (meaning we can't start trying for a baby again yet), taking care of my mom, not having a job, and a number of other things. All these things have been consuming my every thought, but that's not the way it's supposed to be.

Christ didn't die and rise again so I can worry about life...he did it so I could truly live life.

it has been there for quite a while now, mocking me, and mocking you. When a window is just off-screen and you want to get at it, you reach for it. You see the title of the program in the task bar. You right-click, select move, and pray. Your mouse pointer changes to the North-South-East-West arrows, indicating that it should be able to move something. Unfortunately the power is not in your mouse, no the power is in your arrow keys. I'll bet your first move was not to reach for those, was it? It most certainly wasn't for me.

This has got to be the most unintuitive UI design in the product. Don't make the user press a key randomly to get their mouse to do what its icon is already promising. Skip the arrow keys, and give the mouse the power. The end.

Also, this great new game has been released. It's still in BETA, so it's a bit limited and there are a couple bugs, but it is so much fun! It's called Vikings, Pirates, Ninjas (VPN for short). You get to choose whether to be a Viking, Pirate, or Ninja and go on a journey to become a great one! There are shops and auctions and quests and there will be much more in the future. Go to http://www.vpnwars.com/to check it out! If you sign up, look me up. I'm the Pirate Katie Hawkins!

However, life overall is going great.  We live day-to-day in our home (still no mold or spiders!) with our kitties Jack and Minou and we see Mom on a near daily basis.  Nick prought on Sunday and it was an amazing sermon.  I'm always so proud when he preaches.  He does such a good job.  Also, Dad is coming this weekend to visit, which should be fun.  He'll be here late Friday night and leave early Sunday morning.  I wish we could see him more often and for longer, but with his job and new church, it's really not possible.  Mom is excited to see him and so are we all.

We'd love to hear from some of you!  So please write us and let us know how you're doing and what you're up to!

This is the mouse that wishes me good night each night, and has me fix his ears so that I "feel needed". Photo of the actual puppet available here. The photo lacks the personality that Katie gives it though.

Survivor Count: 39,556

What Happened:
The episode began with these words flashing across the screen and with a reminder of the known history of the cylons.  We go back in time to see what happened to Ellen.  We see her being poisoned by Saul and her resurrecting in a ship above.  Obviously, the Centurion guarding her resurrection pod is surprised to see her and she initially seems surprised to be resurrecting as a cylon.  However, her memory returns to her quickly and she tells the Centurion that it's ok for it to help her out.  We learn quite a bit from Ellen during this episode.  Ellen and the rest of the five were the creators of the seven known models of cylons and one that was sabotaged by Brother Cavil (Number One).  Cavil (whom Ellen calls John, named after her father) destroyed the amniotic sacs of the Sevens (named Daniel) and the live bodies because he was jealous of them, though he says it's because the Daniels were flawed.  The Daniels were favorites of Ellen's.  Artistic, thoughtful and loving.  Cavil holds Ellen in a secretive cell where no one will see her besides him and is hostel toward her the entire episode.  He brings Boomer in several times to show her that the final five are weak and stupid because of their embracement of their human design.  Ellen and Cavil go back and forth throughout the episode about their differences in opinion concerning their human design.  Cavil sees it as a weakness because they are machines and should be able to do things other machines can do.  Ellen sees it as good because it broadens their horizens and creates new opportunies for thought and growth.  We find out that Cavil became so bitter, he wiped the memories of the Final Five and set them out as sort of sleeper agents, like Boomer was, in the hopes that when they came to, they would see the error of their ways.  Eventually, we get to the point when the fleet destroys the possibilitiy for resurrection.  Cavil is outraged and demands Ellen tell him how to recreate resurrection.  She explains that she would need all five of the final five to do it because she didn't have all the information.  He doesn't believe her and tells her he's going to have the Simons (Number Four) cut open her head and they'll find out how that way.  Once the Simons are ready, Cavil sends Boomer to get Ellen for surgery.  However, Boomer takes Ellen to a Raptor instead and they escape the Baseship and the Raiders the cylons sent after them.  (This happens four months in the past from where we are with the fleet.)

Sam Anders has a bullet in his neck and it's lodged in a relatively accessable spot.  He suddenly has all sorts of memories of Earth and what happened, so he asks Starbuck to get the others.  Upon the inquiring of Starbuck, he clarifies that he means Tigh, Tory, Tyrol, and Ellen so he can share with all of them.  Starbuck has to remind him that Ellen is dead (little does she know!!!) and he says "of course" and then asks for the others.  When they get there, he explains all sorts of history.  He's in and out of consciousness during the episode and while he is conscious, he's telling the story.  After his surgery, he's alive, but essentially braindead.  What we learned from Sam: The five had some sort of warning about what was going to happen to Earth, so they began to reinvent resurrection.  They had no need for it previously because they were able to procreate, but now it was necessary.  They put a ship in orbit, prepared for what would happen and their plan worked.  They resurrected on the ship and made their way to the Colonies in hopes of preventing what happened to Earth from happening to them, but they were too late.  Some sort of time-space difference made it so thousands of years on Earth had passed while they had actually only appeared in the Colonies decades in the past.  The Five found the colonial cylons and were able to meld the cylon belief in One God and human traits of mercy and love.  This resulted in the 40 year reclusion and the creation of the eight humanoid models.  When Sam mentions the eight models, Kara freaks out and asks for the Seven's name, thinking it could be her.  Sam reluctantly tells her the Seven was a male named Daniel and that he does not know what happened to her.

We only see Lee Adama and Roslin for a short time this episode.  They are in the meeting room for the Quorum of Twelve, discussing the future of the Quorum.  Lee points out that people are no longer represented by the planet they're originally from, but rather by the ship they're living in now.  Roslin agrees that the new representatives should be from the ships and says that while she will keep the title of President, she's going to let Lee do most of the work from now on.  He's honored to do whatever he can.

We also see bits of Galen Tyrol and Admiral Adama in relation to the damage of the ship.  The Admiral reinstates Tyrol as Cheif and puts him to work on the damage (making sure to point out he only wants humans working on it).  Tyrol gets people to work immediately, but soon finds out the damage is worse than expected.  Using a special device, Tyrol shows the Admiral that the damage is deep within the walls of the ship; little cracks all throughout the walls.  He explains that the Galactica is a really old ship and they cut corners when it was originally constructed; the only way to fix the ship would be through cylon technology...to put some sort of biological cylon compound that would fix the cracks as it "matured."  Adama initially, and adamantly, refuses to use cylon technology on the ship, but when he later sees giant cracks in the walls of his bathroom, he boozes himself up and calls up Tyrol, telling him to "do whatever it takes to save our girl."

What I thought:
Quick note...they've lost 10,742 humans since they first escaped the cylons...whoa...

It was interesting to see Ellen Tigh not skanky or being someone you love to hate.  My theory is that Cavil must have been so enraged at her that when he wiped their memories and put new ones in their heads, he must have made her bad, just so she would know what it was to be him.  Obviously his plan backfired.  When the Five became aware, they did not hate humans, nor did they hate their human form.  I totally called it that Boomer was going to help Ellen escape...I just wonder what it was like being trapped in a Raptor for four months...yuck.

Poor Sam...why is it that he's able to get Kara's love just as he goes braindead?  Hopefully, they don't keep him that way...that would totally blow.  It's too bad we weren't able to hear the whole story before he went out for the forseeable future.  Hopefully Ellen will fill in the blanks when she reunites with everyone...I wonder how she's going to feel about Tigh being with the Six and about how that Six is now pregnant.

It gives me hope that they're not going to drag it out or make it a whole episode (it being the re-election of the Quorum and the state of the governmental structure).  Roslin is still ok in my book after the last episode.  She redeemed herself and I think I will probably like her until she dies or the end of the series...whichever comes first.  Lee Adama will make a great leader.

Glad Tyrol gets to be Chief again...he's good at that...I'm just wondering about the reprocutions of using a biological cylon technology on the Galactica.

Now for my far-out prediction/theory concerning the Seven...I think Baltar may be the Seven...now hear me out.  He has an open mind, like an artist.  He believes in a One True God, like the cylons do.  He's been seeing a Six in his head for a long long time.  AND his part in the destruction of the Colonies would have fit with Cavil's twisted plan to make those Cylons he hated regret their opinion of humanity.  Why didn't he activate at the time the others did?  I don't know...it's just a theory.  They may not do anything at all with that Seven.

The next episode of Battlestar Galactica, "Deadlock," will air on February 20, 2009 at 10:00 PM PST.

Mutiny is in the air this episode and it seems like there's nothing anyone can do about it.

This episode:
~The fleet is still rejecting the networking from the cylons and being very vocal about it.  Tigh and Adama have a nice long chat about this first thing.  President Roslin is in the room and coyly says she's not going to get involved with the issue.

~Gaeta helps Zarek escape from holding (Zarek kills that one engineering guy from Pegasus to assist) and he flies over to Colonial One to ruin the Quorum meeting where Lee was speaking.  He then "pushes Lee's buttons" so that he'll go over to the Galactica straight into an ambush.

~A false fire alarm is let out and Gaeta and Zarek's nasty plan is now in play.  Gaeta falsely reports corridors being filled with smoke and fire(even though air readings don't show it...he says they can't trust those because the fire has probably damaged the equipment), the communications are down from it (even though he was the one who actually cut communications between the Battlestar Galactica and the rest of the fleet), and doesn't connect calls from Starbuck (who has caught on to what was going on on the Battlestar Galactica) and Apollo (who knows what's going on on Colonial One).  Also, they have captured and put in the brig the cylons (pregnant Six, Sharon, Sam Anders) on board, Hera and Helo.

~Starbuck arms up when she sees civilians in the armory arming up and gets ready to kick some butt.  She finds Lee just in the nick of time and says that if they (including Racetrack!) don't release him, she will kill someone.  They initially don't listen so she shoots and kills random crew member #1...She restates that she will kill them all one-by-one until they release Lee...they still won't listen so she shoots, but doesn't kill, another one.  Finally, they release him and she gives him a gun.  They have a little kissy kissy and off they go to make sure the Admiral and Tigh are alright.

~Gaeta finally makes his move in the CIC and one of the Marines takes out random officer #2 during the take-over.  Two Marines escort Adama and Tigh to the brig, but halfway there, Adama kills one of them and takes another hostage.  Gaeta names himself commander (the little jerk) and has no idea Adama and Tigh never made it to the brig.

~Starbuck and Apollo make their way (kicking butt along the way) to Admiral Adama's quarters where they find Roslin with a wig on, ready to buck up and do her job.  They walk her down to Baltar's Compartment where we find Tyrol (not captured yet...at least not by the end of this episode) being a leader and organizer.  Tyrol informs them that Adama and Tigh were taken to the brig.

~The fleet is freaking out over the lack of communication with Battlestar Galactica and Gaeta calls Zarek to inform him of the new situation.  Roslin convinces Baltar to allow her to use his fleet-wide wireless so she can make a speech to the fleet to convince them that the right action is to trust the cylons at this point.  Mid-way through her speech, Gaeta figures out a way to cut her off.  Tryol escorts Baltar and Roslin to an abandoned storage bay to get them off the ship.  Baltar calls Gaeta and tries to talk him out of what he's doing, unsuccessfully.

~As Starbuck and Apollo make their way to the brig to bust out Adama and Tigh, they run into them.  Starbuck suggests that they get rid of the hostage.  She, of course, means to kill him, but Adama just lets him go.  Kara tries to kill him as he flees, but misses.  She then, turns to Adama and says "They are not your men anymore!  They are the enemy!"  They make their way to the abandoned storage unit where a Raptor being piloted by a number 8 is waiting to lift off the President and Baltar.  Roslin and Baltar get onboard, Tryol, Starbuck, and Apollo go back on the ship, and Adama and Tigh stay behind to fend off the Marines at the storage bay door.

~The episode to-be-continued us with a bomb being tossed into the storage bay compartment and a shoot-down order on the Raptor given by Gaeta.

What I think:
Have I mentioned that I absolutely cannot stand Gaeta?  This little puke honestly thinks he can run the fleet better than Adama, who has had years of experience?  I think not...there's no way this will play out the way he and Zarek want it to.  That being said, I really want Starbuck to be the one who finally finishes him off...it'll be justice served.

As much as the mutiny sucks, Starbuck needed this episode to happen.  She just hasn't been herself since she got back from Earth.  So depressed and confused...when she realized what was happening, she was pissed...and she had a little gleam in her eye that let us know she had returned.  So glad.  Can't wait to see what she does next.  Also, I wonder where that Apollo/Starbuck kiss will take us...we'll see...

Honestly, had Roslin stepped up to the plate in the first place, I don't think we'd be dealing with all of these issues right now.  It's one of the reasons I can't stand her.  She does the wrong thing until the last minute when she does the right thing, but she does the right thing too late.  Way to go, Roslin.

I really wish that the preview for next week's episode didn't spoil so much.  It pretty much announced that Tigh is dead and Adama is blind.  I don't know if Tigh is really dead...I guess we'll have to see.  Maybe he and Ellen will return together.  Either way, they left us on a cliff hanger this week and we have to wait a whole week until we have some closure here.  Hopefully, things will turn out alright...hopefully.

Survivor Count: 39,643

The next episode, "Blood on the Scales," will air Friday, February 6, 2009 at 10:00 PM PST.

When the doctor arrived for the procedure, she wanted to do an ultrasound to make sure there was still something there to remove.  There was still a small amount left.  The baby had passed at some point Sunday night, but we don't know when.  It would have been nice to know the moment.  I digress.  She said it could potentially be 2 more weeks of waiting before the rest past and I knew I just couldn't handle that waiting or the physical pain from it.  So we went ahead with the procedure.

I got to come home yesterday, but I'm still recovering today and probably will be for the next few days.  I'm taking Percocet (Oxycodone) right now, which has me a bit loopy, but I'm lucid enough right now I thought I'd update everyone. 

This is my final piece of advice...my 2 cents worth.  If you ever experience miscarriage, make it YOUR choice on whether you go through it naturally or by procedure.  Educate yourself.  Don't think people are exaggerating when you read about it being like labor pains or so painful they can't bear it.  From my experience, I'll never do it naturally again if I have the choice.  If you feel ok with doing it naturally, by all means, do it.  Just remember how painful it is mentally and physically.

It's all over now.  The healing can begin emotionally and physically.  I appreciate all of your prayers and thoughts and know that you will continue to keep Nick and I in your prayers.

~We found out that Tyrol is not Nicky's father...Who is the father?  HOTDOG!!!  WHAT?

~Lee slipped that the final model of cylon was a female in a press conference...very smooth

~Discussion of a permanent alliance between the rebel cylons and the human race has begun.  The cylons are ready and willing to offer their FTL technology and offer any assistance to them in understanding it.  The catch?  They want a place on the Quorum of 12...I guess that would make it the Quorum of 13...

~Tigh and the Six's baby is perfectly healthy so far...how nice for the cylons...their race will be able to continue on without their Resurrection Ships

~Gaeta confronts Kara about his leg and how she almost had him flushed out the air lock...geez...some people are so touchy

~Roslin will be resigning as president...she feels she's deserved the right to live out her last days with a little bit of happiness and relaxation...will she survive till the end of the series?

~Baltar is starting a revolution against God

~Tom Zarek isn't too keen on this alliance idea...he is causing an uproar in the Quorum and, therefore, in the fleet.  He convinces the tylium ship to jump away.  Adama takes him in and blackmails him, saying he has a "laundry list" that he'll release to the public if he doesn't give him the coordinates for the ship.  Zarek gives in...we later find out that Adama was sort of bluffing...he literally had Zarek's laundry list.  They get the ship back.  A conspiracy is beginning on the Galactica...starting with Gaeta

~I really could have done without seeing Adama and Roslin snuggling naked under the sheets at the end of the episode...ew...

~New survivor count: 39,644

Now for my commentary on the episode:
First things first, do we really need another love triangle?  At least Callie is gone, so we don't need to worry about the "Who's she going to choose" thing, but poor Tyrol...he's been through so much and now he's learned that not only did his wife cheat on him, but his baby isn't his baby.  AND she cheated on someone lame like Hotdog!  Hotdog of all people.  Goodness.  The only real implication this has is that this means Nicky is not a human/cylon hybrid and that means Hera is still the first and only human/cylon hybrid.

Lee...Lee Adama...how stupid can you be?  Would a "No Comment" be so hard to give out to the public?  I mean, the rest of the press conference was basically "No Comment."  First, he gives away that the final model is thought to be dead...then he gives out the gender.  Let the rumors among the fleet fly.

Now...This may be a bit controversial, but I think they should go for the alliance and give them a seat on the Quorum.  The difference between this alliance and New Caprica is that these models are the ones who wanted peace the whole time and they're against the ones who want to kill off the humans.  Not to mention that, technically, they represent a tribe of Kobol and have every right to have a place on the Quorum.  That being said, if the cylons did stray from this alliance, the surviving humans should have a back-up plan to defend themselves.

Not entirely sure how I feel about Tigh and the Six's baby.  I mean, if the cylons really do intend on living peacefully among the humans, then it's good for those who want to ally themselves.  This is, however, bad because it also means the enemy cylons can reproduce...this is no good at all from that point of view.

Oh Gaeta...he started out as such a great guy and now he's this whiney, bitter, stupid, little man.  Hopefully his pairing with Zarek will either lead to his arrest or death and we won't have to deal with his angry musings much longer.

Roslin resigning...I've been awaiting this day for so long.  I can't stand the woman...then I realized that this means Zarek will be president...ugh...it's just a lose-lose situation.

Speaking of Zarek, I'm not surprised at the fact he's sewing dissent amongst the people of the fleet.  That's what he does best.  I just don't know how long Adama will be able to keep him on a short leash.

Baltar is ridiculous, but we already knew that.  One day he's talking about how loving God is and the next he's saying He should be asking us for forgiveness.  His faith must be really shallow...one test and his faith has failed.  I wonder where this will lead?  And no sign of Head Six...I wonder if she'll return to bring him back to God...

Finally...the Adama/Roslin naked scene.  I mean, I understand what they're trying to do...showing Roslin enjoying her last bit of life, but did we really need to see a naked snuggle?  I don't think ANYONE wanted or needed to see that.

The next episode, "The Oath," will air on Friday, January 30, 2009 at 10:00 PM PST.

Friday's episode was filled with all sorts of revelations that rocked the BSG's fan's boat big time.  In a nut shell:

~The 13th colony was, supposedly, cylon

~Because of the tragedy of finding Earth in the frakked up condition it's in, Dee killed herself (I know...I couldn't believe it either...)

~Adama wanted to die, but couldn't bring himself to do it.  He tried to get Tigh to kill him by hurling a bunch of terrible things in his face...not the least talking about Ellen coming on to him because she subconsciously wanted a real man...not a cylon...

~Roslin walks away from her faith by burning the pages of Pithia...Lee's role as president seems to be working out for him right now

~Starbuck found her crispy corpse and demolished Viper on the planet...even Leoben was taken aback...abandoning her on the planet

~The final four began to have flashbacks of being on Earth at the time of the nuclear blast...including Tigh, who discovered through this flashback that his late wife, whom he poisoned, is the final model of cylon

So what does this mean?  So many things to think about and theorize.  If the 13th colony was really cylon, then why is it that only 5 of the Earth models survived?  (I think there are more than the five we know about...but who knows?) 

Dee killed herself because of the discovery.  According to a Sci-Fi Channel interview with Edward James Olmos (Adm. Adama), people start falling apart all over the place and the last episodes will be "brutal."  What does this mean for the future of other main cast members?

Will the leadership (Adama, Roslin, and Lee) be able to bring themselves together to lead the human race and their new-found cylon allies to a new home?  I think it is only a matter of time before this happens.

If Starbuck isn't the final model of cylon, what is she?  In the original BSG, Apollo and Starbuck are taken by beings of light and shown the way to Earth.  They're returned to the fleet alive after this.  Is it possible that the Starbuck we now know is the reimagined being of light?  Or is she a god(dess) incarnite?  On another note about this, and I'm surprised more people haven't discussed it, Leoben ditched Starbuck!  His beloved Kara Thrace of whom he's been wooing for years!  He's worked so hard to earn her trust...possibly even love...and when she needs him most, he leaves!  What does this say about our prophetic Leoben?  Is this the end of his knowledge concerning the future?

And in case you're in shock (NOOOO!) about Ellen Tigh being the final model, it's true.  I hurriedly went online to find some vain of hope that there's some kind of misunderstanding, but it's been confirmed by Kate Vernon (Ellen Tigh) and Ron D. Moore that she is, indeed, the fifth model...garg.  I had it narrowed down to either her or Felix Gaeta in my mind, but was hoping neither would be it.  Even worse would have been Baltar or Starbuck (which I had ruled out due to the obviousness of one of them being the one).  I was hoping for Zac or even Billy because it would have been utterly unexpected and awesome...oh well.

The next episode, "A Disquiet Follows My Soul," will air this Friday, January 23, 2009 at 10 PM PST.

Monday, we went in for our first appoitment with the OBGYN.  I was feeling the normal symptoms of pregnancy, so we were excited and expecting to get a first glimpse at our little 9 week old.  When we got in, they informed us that the baby should be 10 or 11 weeks along.  All the better, we thought.

The visit was normal until the ultrasound.  The doctor couldn't find a heartbeat and said the baby looked like it was more like 7 weeks along.  Impossible since my positive pregnancy test was 8 weeks ago.  So, she sent us down to the better machines to get another one.  Still no heartbeat.  A sign of miscarriage.  It made no sense!  How could I have miscarried?  I've had no symptoms!  So we had to wait until today to have another one.

We went in this morning and had another one done...still no heartbeat.  And now it looks like it's 6 weeks along and the sac was "deformed," indicating imminent miscarriage.  We had some blood tests done. (Still no word on those.)  Monday, I have to go back in for more bloodwork and one more look-see and then we'll go from there.

We're devastated...to say the least.  Unexpected on all accounts.  I've still had no symptoms of a miscarriage.  I'm thinking I may have to have some sort of procedure because normally a miscarriage should occur 1-2 weeks after the baby has died and it's been 3 by my count and 5 by theirs.  However, there has been no talk of any such procedure and we'll have to just wait and see what the doctor says on Monday.  We'll keep you posted.

We're thinking what we'll probably end up doing is taking our Aveo and the extra money from the settlement and get a car that's sturdier and safer.  We'll see, though.

Still no more news on the chick who hit us from the police.  Hopefully they will call us sometime soon.

I honestly hope that the police have picked up this girl.  What kind of a person T-Bones someone, then drives off?  Seriously!  My arm is still sore, though not as bad as it was last week. 

My pregnancy symptoms are in full-swing right now...they're really bad.  I read that between 8-10 weeks symptoms are at their peak...well, I'm 8 weeks now and it's certainly true...let's just hope that the rumors are true that they'll be gone by the end of the first trimester.  :)

Nick this is Officer Nelson at the Everett Police Department returning... well calling you actually.

Um, I found the person that hit your vehicle.

You're going to have to, well, you're going to have to identify that the person who was driving the vehicle was the person that hit you, okay? Ummm... You're going to have to do all that before charging can be done, because obviously I wasn't there, okay? So you are the only witness to, you and your wife were the only two witnesses to the collision, and so the two of you are going to have to identify her in a photo line up, umm... and everything else.

So, ummm... you will be contacted here in the next umm... probably definitely after the first of the year, ummm.... and asked to come into the police station to do a photo lineup to pick out the driver of the vehicle that hit you, okay? And then once that happens, then uh we can go from there. And that's for just charging her with a hit and run.

As far as insurance, and the collision actually happening, umm I've got all the information, okay? It will be on the report.  So uh.. sometime after the first of the year, which is what tomorrow or the next day, you're going to have to go to down to the police department and get a copy of the police report that has all the information on it, allright?

Okay Well thanks, and I hope, I hope your wife feels better and her arm is not broken I hope. So, take care, and I'll talk to you later, bye.